FACING MY FEARS

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If you read this post, you will know that I (well, ‘we’) missed out on our holidays this year due to my fear of flying. This isn’t a fear where you simply just ‘don’t like it’ but can still go ahead and force yourself to do it, it’s a fear that swallows you up completely and there isn’t any part of you that thinks you can fight against it, and win.

Also, I know it’s not rational. I’m not sure if it stems from overthinking and anxiety, to a fear of falling or even death, but I know that I need help to control it. At this moment in time, it’s winning. Heck, we’ve missed 3 holidays this year that we had already paid for and even went through airport secretary for. Those times were so heart-breaking and really were the lowest that this situation could go. I’m also so thankful to have Dan who is so understanding, even in the hardest of circumstances.

After staying home this summer whilst the rest of my family were having fun abroad, I knew something had to change. I really don’t want to live the rest of my life stuck in one country, whilst missing out on all the places in the world I want to see, the sunsets I want to witness, the foods I want to try, the cultures I want to experience, with my own eyes. I could never live with myself knowing that I denied this for not only myself, but for my future husband too.

The only person who can do this is me.

I’m going to book myself on a fear of flying course that has the practical element of the flight in it, and I hope it’s the next step for me to live the life I want. I know that it’s not going to be easy, and it’s very simple to say all of this when I’m feeling strong, but it’s in those weak moments I pray that I remember these words, and have the courage to fly. It’s not going to be easy, but boy is it going to be worth it.

My favourite quotes about fear:

  • Never trust your fears, they don’t know about your strength.
  • Do what scares you until it doesn’t.
  • Don’t believe everything you think.
  • False Evidence Appearing Real.
  • May your choices reflect your hopes, not your fears.

 

Have you ever faced your fear?

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  • Aww how wonderful Natalie, it’s incredibly brave to face your fears like this. I hope in the moments when you feel weak and don’t think you can follow through with it, you come back to read your post in order to encourage yourself. Wishing you luck with it all! xx
    Coco Bella Blog

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you so much for supporting me in this journey Demilade xxx

  • Go you!! Honestly you should be super proud of yourself for having the courage, motivation and passion to face your fears. I know how deliberating fears can be, but you have the perfect mindset for it. I know you can do this, Natalie! I can’t wait to hear how it goes. Wishing you all the bestest luck. Sending so many positive vibes xx

    Lauren | itslaurenvictoria.blogspot.co.uk

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you so much for your kind words and support Lauren, they honestly mean so much to me xxx

  • Wishing you the best of luck with your course, I think you are doing such a brave and wonderful thing to face your fear! xx

    Kayleigh | http://www.anenthusiasmfor.co.uk

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you Kayleigh, heres hoping I stay strong! xxx

  • Well done Natalie, I think this is such a positive step – and also so brave! I hope the course goes well and that you will tell us about how you get on if you want to. Good luck with it, you’ve got the perfect attitude to it all and I’m sure that will be one of your best assets to help you face your fear. Lots of love! xxx

    Sophie | Sophar So Good

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you so much Sophie for your support, its so scary but I know its what I have to do! xxx

  • Natalie this is so brave, and such a positive step to make. It will be SO worth it in the end. We all have fears that are so, so hard to address. I have had the biggest fear of spiders (seems ridiculous) but it is really awful that I went through therapy for it! Gotta make these decisions for yourself and in the long run, it is worth it. Immy x

    http://www.immymay.com

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you so much for your lovely comment Immy. Facing fears is so scary and leaves you feeling so vulnerable, I know its something I need to do to change the lifestyle I want to have, not what I want to settle for! xx

  • Oh I feel for you. That must have been a tough summer/year booking and not taking said flights.
    I’m not a fan of flying, and I have some ridiculous head tapping rituals I do before take off… but I love being away so much that I just do it. A real deep fear must be tough.
    I’ve heard good things about the practical courses so good luck!!! xxx
    Holly xx
    mrshollycrocker.com

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you so much Holly, I’ve never spoken to anyone who has done the course before so I’m so glad you’ve heard good things about it! Its going to be a scary experience, but I know its something I need to do to live the life I want! xxx

      • I’ve not done it, but I’m sure they have a really good success rate.
        We had some customers, one of whom was a pilot, and the other was cabin crew, and just having met and chatted with them a few times really put my mind at ease.
        I really think having a go at the course will be worth it, xxx

  • I know how paralyzing fear can be. You might know that it’s irrational but, for some weird reason, you can’t move past it. It’s always hard to face our fears so you should feel proud for having that mindset + taking that first step and booking a course. Wishing you the best of luck! 🙂 x

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you so much Joana, it feels such a scary step but I know its one in the right direction xxx

  • Megan Hillery

    I have a completely irrational fear of spider-webs. Not of spiders. Just webs. It’s quite strange really. I would actually burst into tears if I run into one, especially if it had a spider in the middle of it! I just don’t know what it is about them because they don’t harm you at all… I hate the texture and how they stick to you and stretch… I can admire one from afar though when it has been in the rain.

    Meg x | the-writeblog.blogspot.co.uk

    • NatalieLeanne

      Everyone has their own set of fears don’t they.. I’m sure you’re not alone! xxx