ON NOT NEEDING TO KNOW IT ALL.

Please note, I’m typing this on a Saturday evening after a much-needed short few minutes on my yoga mat, after a super busy but great day. But I felt like I needed some time to myself to de-compress.

As with most of my slight epihanes, they pop up after a few stretches and some time to really think and see what’s bothering me. Tonight’s was the idea that I have to know all the answers.

I think I’ve always been like this, I find comfort in the finality of a decision. I like to know what’s going on, the knowledge keeps me feeling safe, secure and somewhat in control. But really, we will never know it all.

And maybe we never should.

Maybe the joy and journey and intense struggle that life can sometimes be, is teaching us that in the end, there is no perfect answer. There is nothing for us to search, cling and hold ourselves to. Life isn’t a solid structure of comfort, security and routine, and there isn’t a rulebook to follow.

Maybe after all this, there is no need to know it all, because it doesn’t exist.

There is no right answer.

There never was.

Do you ever struggle with this?

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  • This is just perfect Xxxx a lovely read when I needed it most! Beautiful x

    Keep calm and start writing –
    http://www.23millymay25.blogspot.co.uk

    • NatalieLeanne

      Thank you so much Milly. Are you well? 🙂

  • Shannon

    As always, I love the different topics you cover. Your blog is a breath of fresh air!

    Shann Eileen | http://www.shanneileen.com

    • NatalieLeanne

      That is so so wonderful to hear on this rainy Friday. Thank you so much!

  • girl. so so SO well said.

    • NatalieLeanne

      You are always an inspiration to me lady x

  • Rings a bell, for sure. Sometimes ignorance really is bliss but still I have a need to know everything, it’s really weird. I also made a mistake of telling my bf about this “need” and now he uses it to annoy me by keeping some insignificant info from me… Drives me nuts 😀

    • NatalieLeanne

      Ahhhh that would drive me mad too! Maybe this is why I hate surprises?!

  • Amy Eade

    Oh gosh sometimes I want to know everything about everything and it’s just impossible isn’t it?!
    Amy xx
    callmeamy.co.uk

    • NatalieLeanne

      Reminder to take a deep breath and let it go! x

  • I totally get this. The necessity of being in control of everything, is one of my weakness. In some occasion it makes me feel safe but I realize that life is made of fleeting moments. Life isn’t a solid structure, as you said! Loved this post Natalie!

    federica | http://www.theprettypeony.com

    • NatalieLeanne

      I think we cling on to the comfort of it don’t we? Which is only natural, but it’s so hard to let go of!

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