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The One Before ‘The One’

It’s safe to say you were my first infatuation.

I won’t use the word ‘love’ as to me, that should be something that makes you feel good. That fills you up inside with a lovely comforting buzz, and makes you feel that you could take on the world. But nevertheless, you were for sure my first heartbreak.

I remember it so well, the days I woke up crying and went to bed with leaky eyes. Everything was difficult, grey, cloudy and in a haze because I was so, so sad. I was 17 at the time and life felt like it wouldn’t ever be the same again. I could literally feel my heart broken. I promised myself this would be the last time I had my heart broken and I would never trust a boy again.

Then, ‘The One’ came along. Well I say came along, it was a long 5 five years before he strode into my life with his bright blue eyes and cheeky smile, and I knew he would be here to stay. He had to break down the walls you built for me, but I knew he wouldn’t let me down like you did, and he brought my heart back to life. But now, it shines brighter than it ever did for you. This time it was the good kind of love. The kind that accepts you completely for who you are, weird quirks and annoying habits in tow.

He’s the guy I want to be my husband, and in a good five or ten years, the father of my children.

So thank you, for showing me that I can survive the worst, and come out stronger. Thank you for the hurt, that caused me to truly find myself and my love. And most importantly, thank you for leaving so someone better could take your place.

  • Aw Natalie this post is so lovely! I think we can all relate to the heartbreak we experience when we lose the one we thought we loved. But as you said, someone new comes along and it makes you feel all those amazing things once again, but for the better this time xx

    Lauren |

    • I’m so glad you liked it, I was so nervous to share as it’s totally different to anything I’ve posted before! xxx

  • So beautifully written, Natalie. Hope you are truly happy now, you surely do deserve the best 🙂 x

    Fatima x

  • I love the idea of writing a letter to this person <3

  • This was a beautiful post. I had a ‘the one before the one’, too. SO happy that you’ve found your soulmate. I’ve also found the one and see that everything happens for a reason. <3 Have a great day!


    • Thank you so much for reading, and I’m so glad you’re happy now too! xx

  • Ah this is such a sweet post Natalie 🙂

    The Makeup Directory

    • Thank you so much Sally, I felt so nervous to share! xx

  • Aw Natalie! This was so well written. And so glad you’re in such a wonderful relationship now xx

    Frances Kayleigh | Fashion Beauty Lifestyle

    • Thank you so much Frances, I was so nervous to publish as haven’t really shared anything like this before but I’m so glad people understood where I was coming from! x

  • This post is so beautifully written. I feel I can relate a lot too! I’m happy you’ve found happy! X

    • Thank you so much for reading Paige! I appreciate it sooo much! xx

  • Beautifully written, so happy you have found him! xxx

    • Thank you soo much lovely lady, I’m so glad you enjoyed reading it! xx

  • Amy Eade

    Ah how beautifully written Natalie! I feel like so many people (me included) will relate to this!
    Amy xx

    • I’m so happy you liked it Amy- was so nervous to share! xx